Effervescent Life!
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Here is the short story I posted HERE:
Reality TV
The predestination of my my mind is an often visited one to that day. The day that shall never die. Oh, how I loathe it! Where is big pink eraser for our brains? I do not want to be on this train of thought. That day remains the playground of my life. Like a child I am at the helm of every action. Sometimes I play the same still image in my mind repeatedly, and other times I bend reality so that I may pretend I have made some progress moving on.Jenny was my best friend. She kept her black hair short, but wild. Her eyes were large and grey, and so soothing you could have called them hypnotic. That girl was full of life, and life mostly loved her back. Every person I know, was drawn to the radience of her being, the gleeful cheer in her face, and the openness of her heart. I will thank the heavens every day that she was my friend.Unfortunately Jenny had a dark side. Every now and again a deep depression would grab ahold of her. She would question herself, denigrate herself, and become violent towards herself. I was one of very few people who knew of this, and often I was her sounding board. I tried to get her to visit a psychiatrist, but she refused, believing in her own competence to cure herself. Over time, it was obvious to me that she needed real help, and I decided to have a serious chat with her.That day we went to lunch. We talked about graduating college soon over our lemon swordfish. I was pensively awaiting the right moment to approach her, but it did not come during our last meal together. Instead we were strolling through the park when I brought it up. She did not react well."What the Fuck Amy! You know it isn't that bad." Her eyes were starting to get a molten glow of anger."Jenny, I just--" I tried to interject."You fucking bitch! You think I'm crazy! YOU are the crazy one! Bitch!" she raged at me. Then she stormed off.I stopped and watched her go. I could tell she was crying by the time she left the concrete path. I was hoping a little distance would calm her down. Deep in thought I wondered if I should approach her parents. Yes, I remember thinking that was a good idea. I decided to head back to her place, and I stopped for a soda along the way. I bought her one too. I looked at my watch. A half hour had gone by, and I hoped she was no longer angry.I climbed up the steps to her apartment, and knocked on her door. No answer. The second time I pounded a little harder and the door clicked and swung open. It was silent. Still. I looked around slowly wondering where she was. My heart started to pound and I walked into the entry. "Jen." I called out. Nothing. I started to jog toward her room panicked."Jenny! Jen?" "JENNY!" I flung open her bedroom door. Empty, but a sliver of light shone out from her bathroom. I grasped the knob and pushed the door inward."No, God, no" From here on out things become more real than anything I have ever experienced. A tub full of water, and my best friend floating in a sea of red. Blood. Wielding her galvanized razor as if it was a sword. "No, no. no. no. no . no." Those beautiful eyes staring at me, but never more to see me. Her clothes floating aimlessly on the surface, and her hair also on display. Life splattered on her clean white bathroom tile. I fainted.That day is everyday for me. My psychiatrist tells me to turn the channel, but I cannot yet. I am still Jenny's best friend.. She was able to break our bond, but I am unwilling yet. Someday, but not today..................
It still need a lot of character development, but at least I wrote something. It's been months!
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Well, that's just great. My cat is a diabetic. About a month ago we bought an off brand food that both of our cats hated. Neither one of them ate much of it, but within 5 days we bought thier normal brand. Abbey just kept losing wieght. Then she started drinking water like mad, and her urine output went up as well (duh). Dh blamed it on the hot weather, but I had my doubts. After we came back from camping I noticed lots of hair clumps all over the place, and that was the last straw. Took her in today, and got the diagnoses .She's going to get real expensive real quick. Next vet visit will cost approximately $300.00 . Luckily our vet said that we caught it early and we can try to treat it thru diet for the time being, but eventually she will have to see the vet again. We so cannot afford this , but what are you gonna do....sigh...........
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Camping for Morons
A) Do not try to "save" an area with 2 tents. Especially if that area is half the campground. Instead, set up only after most of your party has arrived that way all 6 families aren't sharing a very small space because the spot you chose got halfed, then quartered, because you didn't want to have to pack up and move.
B) When camping in the primitive (tent) area do bring along your generator. Im sorry you did not bring batteries for your radio, but not only do we not want to listen to it, we would actually like to hear each other talking too.
C) Do not use your husbands nickname while camping. I don't want to hear "Lover, do you want a drink?", "Lover, keep your voice down!", "Lover, tell the kids it's past their bedtime!"
D) Related to point C. Do not bring alcohol to the campground if you are a belligerent drunk. Especially if ALL the adults in your party are belligerent drunks. Thanks for the laughs though.
E) If your dog hates and/or is afraid of people, DO NOT BRING IT! Common sense here people. It's a holiday weekend for Petes sake. Your dog doesn't like to be a sardine any more than we do. Leave them with a friend.
F) Do not shoot off fireworks late at night. Between 9-10:30 is late enough that it is dark, and that most kids are still awake. You WILL wake them up if you shoot up a freakin box of fireworks at midnight.
G) Do not shoot up said fire works in direction of tents. There is a whole fucking field out their morons. Point them AWAY from the tents, genius. We shouldn't have to shake fireworks dust off our tent before putting our kids back to sleep so our tent doesnt burn down with them in it.
H) Do not leave your campsite all day long and return at 11pm to throw 3 seperate birthday parties. Lover, if you're reading this, Happy Birthday!
I) Do not set up your tent 2 feet away from the outhouses. It's weird and creepy.
J) Pick up after your dog. Don't want to pick up their shit? Leave them with a friend.
K) Do not allow your toddler to run around naked. Yes, it's an accepted potty training practice, but for for fucks sake you had a corner lot. Everybody and thier brother could see your child, and that's just creepy!
This concludes Camping for Morons for now. I reserve the right to change or add any point within. Feel free to suggest additions to me! Later I will be back for a personal accounting of our actual trip ;)
EL
OK, on to the actual camping trip itself. We had a great time! Me, DS, and DD all got toasted by the sun even with sunblock applied willy nilly. DS's nose has peeled and scabbed, poor boy.
Nephews were a lot of fun. Hanging out with BIL and SIL is always a good time. Saw lots of DH's family. On Sunday we went to my friends parents house. They are such nice people! Unfortunately, only the Dad, and grandson were there, but we enjoyed our visit regardless. When DD needed fed the Dad was so non-chalant (as I knew he would be!). He even told me to just throw a towel over my shoulder so I could stay in the living room. I declined, but it's nice to know people like him are out there!Saw my old friend Heather, but didn't get to chit chat much since it was late at night, and I had just got done putting the baby to bed. She has 3 kids of her own, and she's 3 years younger than I!!!! Her oldest is 2.5 years older than my son! Incredible. I'm hoping to find her email addy or phone number so I can stay in touch!On Monday, we broke down all of our camping stuff, and headed to my Dads for a picnic. DD was so cranky, and had had enough. She just wanted to go home. DS on the other hand had a blast. Especially when my Dad took him in the hottub with him. It was hard to get him back out. LOL! We didn't stay long (4 hours max) before we decided to head home. I was SO FREAKIN HAPPY to be home ;) I love to catch up with everybody, but it sure wore us all out!
Friday, July 01, 2005
Going to be gone this weekend. We are going camping up north, and won't be back until Monday. Maybe I will have something interesting to say then ;)
For those that are interested.....Please come get NOTI
and of course the Sounding Board is entertaining as ever!
Happy 4th of July!