Dear Victoria's Secret,

I'm an adult. I've long since lost my affinity for eating tubes of flavored lip gloss. Your Sweet Talk lip gloss smells yummy. I have no desire to eat it. However, since it is a lip product, getting it in my mouth is unavoidable. I would appreciate if you could make it taste somewhat better than vaseline. Again, I promise not to purposely eat it.

Dear Ford Marketing Team,

Your Ford Bold commercial is ridiculous. The one where the guitar guy gets off the bus. Perhaps, you should consider sending your advertising team back to Advertising 101.

Dear Body,

I thought we had an agreement? I'm incredibly disappointed in your ability to catch a cold. Please refrain from this tactic from now on. I agree I need to lose some (ok, a LOT) of weight, but that is no reason to hate on me. I wish I had something to give you as a sign of faith that things will get better, but I'm near to caged in by snotty kleenex.

Sincerely,
Jac

The Living Years!

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that Im a prisoner
To all my father held so dear
I know that Im a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
Im afraid thats all weve got

You say you just dont see it
He says its perfect sense
You just cant get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defence

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
Its too late when we die
To admit we dont see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
Its the bitterness that lasts

So dont yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you dont give up, and dont give in
You may just be o.k.

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
Its too late when we die
To admit we dont see eye to eye

I wasnt there that morning
When my father passed away
I didnt get to tell him
All the things I had to say

I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
Im sure I heard his echo
In my babys new born tears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
Its too late when we die
To admit we dont see eye to eye
--Mike and the Mechanics.

Me, my sister, and both of our best friends (who were also sisters!) loved this song when we were young! I just had to post it since I found it on google.

Tonight its very clear
As were both lying here
Theres so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I dont wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Youll keep me standing tall
Youll help me through it all
Im always strong when youre beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youve been dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Were gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
--Peter Cetera, Glory Of Love.

There's also one I'm looking at that has to do with a man who's father dies, and he, the singer, sings about seeing his father in his newborns eyes? But I can't come up a lyric to search for, so if you know what I'm talking about LMK!

I love you.

I know we don't always get along, and our personalities clash like oil and water, but I will never not love you.

I remember when we were young, and it was me and you against the world? Ok, ok, it was just fire ant hills and bees, but those memories mean so much to me. Dancing in the baby pool on a hot summer night, playing at "the lot". How many items do you think we tested on that sensor? Riding our bikes to the carryout? Just you me.... you and me.

It might sound weird, but it doesn't get said nearly enough.
I love you,
Jac.

was in hindsight, the biggest decision I made that deeply impacted my life.

I was married several months after turning 18, and Effervescent Husband and I wanted all the same things.

Children right away.
One parent raising the children from home. (It only made sense to have DH work since he was experienced and loves his job)
That stay at home parent would then go back to school when Children all started school themselves.

Not really a bad plan until you throw God into the mix.

See I have fertility issues. I didn't know it then, but I sure do know. For almost 4 years whenever somebody would ask if I wanted to go back to school, I would say "no". Because I didn't want to have to drop out if I got pregnant. Again, looking back, this was not a good plan. I could have easily gotten an associates-possibly even a bachelors degree, by the time Effervescent Boy made his arrival.

Instead I worked strings of odd jobs.

Now I can't wait to do something for myself. I love my kids dearly, but I'm over being a SAHM. I'm not good at it. I don't have the focus or commitment for structure that young kids need. I like to think I would have made a better SAHP in the beginning of married life like we had planned. When I wasn't so antsy, and my fictional kids would both be in school this year too. That isn't how it happened.

I pray I don't live my life by hindsight in the future.

I know I bit your head off when you woke me up within minutes of you having to leave for work. I then asked you to wake me up earlier so I would have a little time to really wake up before I have to get up.

Then I bit your head off for waking me up early.

Let's face it. I don't have a good morning gene, and it was wrong of me to set you up. Sorry!

A meme courtesy of Lemon Parade.

"All you have to do is post the first line of the first post of each month." A year in review, if you will. I'm going to assume that my subject line is my first line since I think of them as the fist sentence to my entries ;)

January 2006
The Double Standard is Alive and Well.

February 2006
I'm Back From the Big Apple.

March 2006
What can I say? I'm a follower. (Pretty ironic given the stolen meme)

April 2006
April Fools Meme.

May 2006
For Sarah. (Ah! One of my absolute faves because I love Sarah!)

June 2006
Not Your Average Shoe Fetish. (Another one of my faves because I still miss my mules)

July 2006
"OH SNAP!"

August 2006
Boobies, And Nipples, And Babies! Oh My!

September 2006
A Saturday Night Review.

October 2006
Ten Odd Things About Me.

November 2006
No, Our Government Isn't The Least Bit Crazy.

December 2006
Spreading Christmas Cheer.


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Viola! A new blog entry is born!